Aurora - Rean Heart

[awakenerd]

You float in a void--darkness around you, above, below, in every direction, nothing. You stand on nothing, you even breathe nothing. But you do not feel in danger, you are not suffocating. You are simply existing in… Nothing.

Crow | Towa | Dusk | 80H | Rufus

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Re: 2/2

[awakenerd]

"Selfish, inconsiderate."

[voreaciously]

"...Being selfish is fine, is it not?"

She writes inconsiderate, though.

[awakenerd]

"Depends."

[voreaciously]

"On?"

Like come on you know she was gonna follow up with that why not just explain yourself!!!

She switches colours--because she's not certain she wants to include it--and writes "Selfish" and then again to denote further explanations

[awakenerd]

"If it's him it's bad if it's anyone else it's fine. Isn't that obvious?"

[voreaciously]

"I was hoping that would not be the case."

She makes a note, in marigold orange: "increase selfishness, somehow".

"He...you are allowed to have things."

[awakenerd]

"You gonna prove that by example?"

[voreaciously]

"I am not remotely important enough to you to do so."

[awakenerd]

"Says who."

[voreaciously]

"I do."

There are faces in her mind before she thinks to stop them.

"But we are not here to discuss me, are we?"

That is a rhetorical question, by the by.

[awakenerd]

"What you say about how important you aren't doesn't matter you know. Not here especially."

[voreaciously]

She wants to change that. She should. It would make things so much easier.

"Well, I am not. I never--"

...

"Nevermind. This is not about me."

[awakenerd]

"Isn't it?"

[voreaciously]

She gestures to the board, and underlines the TITLE OF THE THING.

Sir?

Sir??

"No, it pointedly is not. At any rate, he is allowed to be selfish and have things and I am certain that if I cannot fix that, someone else will."

[awakenerd]

"Aren't I being selfish?"

[voreaciously]

"No, simply difficult. Kindly focus. Not on me."

[awakenerd]

"I'm not the obedient type."

[voreaciously]

"We are not going to get anywhere if you insist on being this way." she tries to be more gentle about it.

[awakenerd]

"Where exactly do you want to get? If you won't even admit you care. Or he cares. It takes some real balls to claim how he feels too."

[voreaciously]

Pardon her she's just going to pause at that mildly foul language. Coming from Rean Schwarzer's mouth.

Gods, there's been such a dearth of swearing in her life lately--anyway, she writes "insensible" on the list.

That one's more bratty than anything.

"I do not care. And he should not care."

[awakenerd]

"He cares anyway, what're you gonna do about it?"

[voreaciously]

"Give him reason to stop by being myself."

[awakenerd]

"That's so... stupid."

[voreaciously]

"I beg to differ. I cannot be anything but myself."

Even when she's--

"It is inevitable."

Does she mean that she will drive him away or just her personality in general? Honestly, is there a difference?

[awakenerd]

"Whatever. You do what you want."