Aurora - Rean Heart

[awakenerd]

You float in a void--darkness around you, above, below, in every direction, nothing. You stand on nothing, you even breathe nothing. But you do not feel in danger, you are not suffocating. You are simply existing in… Nothing.

Crow | Towa | Dusk | 80H | Rufus

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[voreaciously]

She wants to change that. She should. It would make things so much easier.

"Well, I am not. I never--"

...

"Nevermind. This is not about me."

[awakenerd]

"Isn't it?"

[voreaciously]

She gestures to the board, and underlines the TITLE OF THE THING.

Sir?

Sir??

"No, it pointedly is not. At any rate, he is allowed to be selfish and have things and I am certain that if I cannot fix that, someone else will."

[awakenerd]

"Aren't I being selfish?"

[voreaciously]

"No, simply difficult. Kindly focus. Not on me."

[awakenerd]

"I'm not the obedient type."

[voreaciously]

"We are not going to get anywhere if you insist on being this way." she tries to be more gentle about it.

[awakenerd]

"Where exactly do you want to get? If you won't even admit you care. Or he cares. It takes some real balls to claim how he feels too."

[voreaciously]

Pardon her she's just going to pause at that mildly foul language. Coming from Rean Schwarzer's mouth.

Gods, there's been such a dearth of swearing in her life lately--anyway, she writes "insensible" on the list.

That one's more bratty than anything.

"I do not care. And he should not care."

[awakenerd]

"He cares anyway, what're you gonna do about it?"

[voreaciously]

"Give him reason to stop by being myself."

[awakenerd]

"That's so... stupid."

[voreaciously]

"I beg to differ. I cannot be anything but myself."

Even when she's--

"It is inevitable."

Does she mean that she will drive him away or just her personality in general? Honestly, is there a difference?

[awakenerd]

"Whatever. You do what you want."

[voreaciously]

"You seem upset."

[awakenerd]

"I don't like how much you hate yourself, it's annoying."

[voreaciously]

"I do not hate myself." Why does everyone keep saying that?

[awakenerd]

"You act like it."

[voreaciously]

"That is preposterous," she says very calmly.

[awakenerd]

"In what ways don't you act like you hate yourself?"

[voreaciously]

"I treat myself adequately?" she's just living her life.

[awakenerd]

"Whatever. I'm not arguing, you treat yourself like a princess or a goddess whatever you want to say, sure, say it."

[voreaciously]

"...I am not a princess or a goddess. I would not treat myself like either of those things."

like don't be absurd dude.

[awakenerd]

He's judging really hard.

[voreaciously]

"...Do you think I do?"

She is so fucking confused.