Aurora - Rean Heart

[awakenerd]

You float in a void--darkness around you, above, below, in every direction, nothing. You stand on nothing, you even breathe nothing. But you do not feel in danger, you are not suffocating. You are simply existing in… Nothing.

Crow | Towa | Dusk | 80H | Rufus

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[awakenerd]

"Do you want to experience it or read it?"

[crimeson]

...Experience it, I think.

[it'll be harder to deny then, and he knows himself]

[awakenerd]

He takes Randy's hand, lifts it to his his chest, and places it over his heart.

Randy's probably used to feeling things from Rean, including affection. But now, he feels... As Rean. He can see, just a bit, himself through Rean's eyes.

Tall and strong and handsome, sure. But with such a core of kindness and gentleness that it takes Rean's breath away. A guy who doesn't love himself when he deserves all the love in the world. Someone funny, and smart, and amazing. Someone he trusts. Someone he loves, deeply.

And Rean worries about hurting him, and wishes he could remember him better. But those are minor compared to just enjoying Randy's company right now, in how they know each other now.

He doesn't see Randy as perfect. There's no idealization. But he does see him as wonderful. He wants to protect Randy, and he wants to rely on Randy too. That's just what you do with someone you love, right?

He feels very lucky that Randy loves him, he marvels at it sometimes. He's grateful for Randy. Of course there's also the parts of him that are horny for Randy! There's plenty of physical appreciation and desire but it's just part of it. Part of being incredibly into this guy in front of him.

[crimeson]

[It's hard to take that. Even feeling it directly, part of him wants to deny it, but he puts that in a stranglehold swiftly and pulls Rean into his arms.]

Fuck.

[awakenerd]

He wraps his arms around Randy and pets his back, there there.

"You okay?"

[crimeson]

Yeah. I love you.

[awakenerd]

Flustered and happy to hear it.

"I live you too. If you couldn't tell."

[crimeson]

I try t'remember.

I LIVE YOU

[awakenerd]

"How do I make that easier?"

I LIVE YOU TOO!

[crimeson]

I don't... it's not because of you?

[kissing his cheek]

It's my own problem.

[awakenerd]

"Since I love you it's my problem too. Isn't that how being partners works?"

[crimeson]

...Yeah. But I don't wanna make you feel like you're doing something wrong when you're not.

[awakenerd]

"Rather than being in the wrong, aren't there always more ways to improve? It's okay to give me suggestions."

[crimeson]

But... you're already so good to me...?

[he's not even distressed, just, confused?]

[awakenerd]

"Oh."

He believes Randy he's just surprised.

[crimeson]

...Yeesh.

[kisses him.]

[awakenerd]

Randy gets kissed back! Obviously.

[crimeson]

[Lllletting himself get into it, soft and affectionate. There's stuff he wants to do, but... Making sure Rean knows exactly how he feels is important!]

[awakenerd]

Rean is definitely melting into the makeouts anyway, kissing back passionately. So message probably received.

[crimeson]

[Good!!!! But it's not like he's stopping.]

[awakenerd]

That's fine with Rean, he'll drop his hands to Randy's waist and pull him close.

[crimeson]

[Randy slides his hands down to grope Rean's ass past his fluffy skirt, making a pleased sound. Yes, good, his and beloved and Rean.]

[awakenerd]

Rean gasps and presses his thigh lightly between Randy's legs, melting a little more against him and blushing harder. He can't say anything with his lips locked to Randy's but he's sure feeling the emotions and returning them.

[crimeson]

[they can do cute feedback loop. they're always kind of cute feedback loop, but it's stronger here, where everything is rean's feelings actually. randy's perfectly happy to wall rean-- was there a wall there before? there is now. -- and break the kiss, dropping to his knees to nuzzle at Rean's waist.]

[awakenerd]

He makes a surprised little noise even though like, the wall... Is in his heart. It manifested for Randy. He should know that? But he's really distracted by Randy dropping to his knees.

"Ah... Jeez..."

Randy is just so hot? At all times?