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It's not just that you care about me, that you matter to me. Although you know-- you do. But I want to be there for you every bit as much as you want to be there for me. I want you to feel like you can confide in me, that you can tell me things. I want to upset me with those things. I don't care just about the good things or the pleasant ones.
"This is a tough one... Mostly because it's hard to decide where to start.
I want to tease you a lot, and make you feel good. I want to see you really let loose until you lose your mind just a bit from pleasure. Just from me touching you and tasting you."
He hmms, thinking.
"I guess, just to start. Of course there's lots more."
I want to tease you a lot, and make you feel good. I want to see you really let loose until you lose your mind just a bit from pleasure. Just from me touching you and tasting you."
He hmms, thinking.
"I guess, just to start. Of course there's lots more."
"I don't want to burden you. I know I'm a hypocrite. But... You do so much for me. Asking for any more... I can't. It's not that I think you're only interested in the good things or happy times. I have never once even considered that.
You're already always there looking out for me. At my age shouldn't it be the other way around?
Even if you disagree with that, I still don't want you to spend your time worrying about me."
You're already always there looking out for me. At my age shouldn't it be the other way around?
Even if you disagree with that, I still don't want you to spend your time worrying about me."
[ Crow is quiet for a moment, locks up some feeling in his heart before it has a chance to fully form. ]
....Then I hope you understand when I start taking my memories on my own.
[ It'll take longer to regain them that way, but... ]
It's not like I want to worry you, either.
....Then I hope you understand when I start taking my memories on my own.
[ It'll take longer to regain them that way, but... ]
It's not like I want to worry you, either.
[She certainly wasn’t expecting all that. Towa puts her hands on her cheeks, which are pretty red.]
Oh my—
[He really is going to spoil her terribly.]
I wouldn’t mind letting you see that.
[But there’s a condition.]
As long as you promise to let me return the favor. I want to make you feel good too, Rean.
Oh my—
[He really is going to spoil her terribly.]
I wouldn’t mind letting you see that.
[But there’s a condition.]
As long as you promise to let me return the favor. I want to make you feel good too, Rean.
[ He feels that confused hurt and he genuinely feels bad about it, but he tries to keep himself steady. ]
If you don't trust me, that's fine.
[ It's not like he isn't aware he can be shady as hell! ]
But you know... it's kinda painful to keep putting myself out there. And it feels pretty one-sided when I'm the only one who relies on you, when you don't rely on me back. So I'm keeping it equal.
I won't ask more of you than you can give me.
If you don't trust me, that's fine.
[ It's not like he isn't aware he can be shady as hell! ]
But you know... it's kinda painful to keep putting myself out there. And it feels pretty one-sided when I'm the only one who relies on you, when you don't rely on me back. So I'm keeping it equal.
I won't ask more of you than you can give me.
Heehee— that’s the point.
[She can’t express just how much being here means to her— how impossible it seemed and how blessed she feels. So all she can really do is share that, and give him as much as she can in return, even if it’s not as much.]
I want you to feel that way. So!
[She playfully tugs at his unfastened pants.]
Let me take these from you.
[She can’t express just how much being here means to her— how impossible it seemed and how blessed she feels. So all she can really do is share that, and give him as much as she can in return, even if it’s not as much.]
I want you to feel that way. So!
[She playfully tugs at his unfastened pants.]
Let me take these from you.
"...?"
He's even more upset, and more confused too, sitting up to look at Crow.
"I do trust you though."
But this is bad. He's hurt Crow. He doesn't know what to do about it either. He's also trying to keep calm but the fact that Crow is withdrawing from him emotionally here of all places, with him, is making him a little pale.
He's even more upset, and more confused too, sitting up to look at Crow.
"I do trust you though."
But this is bad. He's hurt Crow. He doesn't know what to do about it either. He's also trying to keep calm but the fact that Crow is withdrawing from him emotionally here of all places, with him, is making him a little pale.
[ Crow sees the way Rean is going pale and he debates with himself for a moment before letting that feeling he locked up out. Rean's already guessed what it is anyway-- he's hurt. ]
You know it doesn't feel that way when you're more concerned about not burdening me, right?
I want you to feel like you can rely on me, like it's okay to lean on me. I want to be there for you. It doesn't sound like a burden if you let me worry about you-- that sounds like a privilege. Let me see the bad things, let me see the sad things. Let me see the ugly things. Because those things are a part of you too. And I love all of you, not just the parts you feel aren't a burden.
You know it doesn't feel that way when you're more concerned about not burdening me, right?
I want you to feel like you can rely on me, like it's okay to lean on me. I want to be there for you. It doesn't sound like a burden if you let me worry about you-- that sounds like a privilege. Let me see the bad things, let me see the sad things. Let me see the ugly things. Because those things are a part of you too. And I love all of you, not just the parts you feel aren't a burden.
"So it would follow that I would go to trouble."
[ Crow sits up properly. ]
I... know I'm asking a lot of you. I'm sorry about that.
I... know I'm asking a lot of you. I'm sorry about that.
[He wanted her to let loose so— she’s going to do her best not to hold back.
That’s all the room she needs to strip him completely. And the only thing that had been stopping her from getting on her knees in front of him, smiling shyly.]
I don’t want anything between us right now.
[She won’t remove them herself but he has just as much freedom to take the last of her clothes too after a statement like that. But he’ll have to try to do that with her wrapping her hands around his length and pressing her lips to the underside, letting it gently rub against her cheek.
With that promise, she had absolutely not planned to play fair.]
That’s all the room she needs to strip him completely. And the only thing that had been stopping her from getting on her knees in front of him, smiling shyly.]
I don’t want anything between us right now.
[She won’t remove them herself but he has just as much freedom to take the last of her clothes too after a statement like that. But he’ll have to try to do that with her wrapping her hands around his length and pressing her lips to the underside, letting it gently rub against her cheek.
With that promise, she had absolutely not planned to play fair.]
Rean.
[ Crow pulls Rean closer to him, wraps his arms around him. ]
Your feelings are important, too.
[ Crow pulls Rean closer to him, wraps his arms around him. ]
Your feelings are important, too.
It's alright, I don't expect you to be perfect. That's my job.
[ He's teasing, hoping to get a smile out of Rean. ]
[ He's teasing, hoping to get a smile out of Rean. ]
[ Well, a smile is still an important start! ]
More seriously, I know you have a hard time caring about yourself.
[ LIKE, HE HAS NOTICED. ]
Buuut I'm always happy to pick up the slack there. So just rely on me and I'll rely on you. And if it's ever too much, I won't make you guess. Sound like a deal?
More seriously, I know you have a hard time caring about yourself.
[ LIKE, HE HAS NOTICED. ]
Buuut I'm always happy to pick up the slack there. So just rely on me and I'll rely on you. And if it's ever too much, I won't make you guess. Sound like a deal?
He looks at Crow for a long moment, still tense. Breathing in and out slowly.
He does know what Crow means of course. He absolutely does understand. And he wants to respond positively. But Crow closing him out was... Honestly bad. Very bad. He's having to sort through his own panic to try to be logical. He wants to just agree to appease Crow but that's the opposite of a good reason to agree. Figuring out if he wants to agree for himself is impossible right this second. And refusing to agree will only hurt Crow.
"Crow... Please give me... A moment."
He's still got that smile but it's kind of stiff.
He does know what Crow means of course. He absolutely does understand. And he wants to respond positively. But Crow closing him out was... Honestly bad. Very bad. He's having to sort through his own panic to try to be logical. He wants to just agree to appease Crow but that's the opposite of a good reason to agree. Figuring out if he wants to agree for himself is impossible right this second. And refusing to agree will only hurt Crow.
"Crow... Please give me... A moment."
He's still got that smile but it's kind of stiff.
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