SO so. B. B is one of Phoenix's favorite people, one of the first people he's really considered a friend and someone to rely on so... Wow his feelings on B are both complicated and straight forward. The simple part is, he likes B. No frills, no questions asked, he believes B is a really kind, smart person facing a tough situation and so he really admires him.
The complicated part comes with everything else. Between the trauma game and B's memory he feels like a complete failure as a friend. He couldn't protect B and he couldn't even comfort him, instead he keeps getting cheered up by B while being unable to contribute up cheering B up? Feels real bad. ON TOP OF THAT between B, E and H teasing him or telling him he's a monster or stuffy or whatever he's getting a little insecure, like maybe he's just bad at interacting and that's why he seems so useless at cheering up his friends.
He isn't even sure if just asking B straight "how do I be a better friend to you" will work but he might ask E for advice on that.
Basically he adores B but is also like ??????? at him. How do you work B?? How do I make myself a better friend for you???
General feelings aside he's got a shit ton of guilt about the game so that's also like, weighing on his ability to be as upfront. At the same time he's still really happy to come be AlcheME's maid especially if it cheers any of them up??
Please actually laugh at him B that's much better than smiling uncomfortably. He'd rather be the butt of jokes than the object of too cheerful smiles.
He has zero idea that B thinks he's hot even though B has said it. It's obviously a joke? Even if it's not it's not something he parses as reality, nor is B having anything like a romantic feeling for him. Which is funny because he would probably have a crush on B if he noticed these things.
He likes Phoenix a lot but he's also. Weird. He's so kind and thoughtful and physically touchy! All things he wants and needs. But he exceeds the levels he's comfortable with and has no limiter. So he can quickly go from okay this is cute and nice if a little oh no~ to WOW IM OVERWHELMED. YIKES. Yikes!!!
There's also just this weird. He's spent a decent amount of time with Phoenix but he doesn't know a lot about who he is other than Nice and that weirds him out. he has this with E a bit but chalks that up to like. E is so powerful he is our strongest lie boy!!! But Phoenix is not a lie boy so???? Its very confusing and he's kind of frustrated with that since he's mostly been pretty good at like. Getting people. And this time he is just. ????
Honestly he latched onto the nickname sadist partly because that poking and prodding part of his personality is his most distinctive trait. THATS WEIRD YOURE WEIRD
But he likes to hang out with him and I guess also boy u hot. SIGH.
Phoenix's Ideal Game or your ideal game for Phoenix
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The complicated part comes with everything else. Between the trauma game and B's memory he feels like a complete failure as a friend. He couldn't protect B and he couldn't even comfort him, instead he keeps getting cheered up by B while being unable to contribute up cheering B up? Feels real bad. ON TOP OF THAT between B, E and H teasing him or telling him he's a monster or stuffy or whatever he's getting a little insecure, like maybe he's just bad at interacting and that's why he seems so useless at cheering up his friends.
He isn't even sure if just asking B straight "how do I be a better friend to you" will work but he might ask E for advice on that.
Basically he adores B but is also like ??????? at him. How do you work B?? How do I make myself a better friend for you???
General feelings aside he's got a shit ton of guilt about the game so that's also like, weighing on his ability to be as upfront. At the same time he's still really happy to come be AlcheME's maid especially if it cheers any of them up??
Please actually laugh at him B that's much better than smiling uncomfortably. He'd rather be the butt of jokes than the object of too cheerful smiles.
He has zero idea that B thinks he's hot even though B has said it. It's obviously a joke? Even if it's not it's not something he parses as reality, nor is B having anything like a romantic feeling for him. Which is funny because he would probably have a crush on B if he noticed these things.
B FEELINGS ON PHOENIX.
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He likes Phoenix a lot but he's also. Weird. He's so kind and thoughtful and physically touchy! All things he wants and needs. But he exceeds the levels he's comfortable with and has no limiter. So he can quickly go from okay this is cute and nice if a little oh no~ to WOW IM OVERWHELMED. YIKES. Yikes!!!
There's also just this weird. He's spent a decent amount of time with Phoenix but he doesn't know a lot about who he is other than Nice and that weirds him out. he has this with E a bit but chalks that up to like. E is so powerful he is our strongest lie boy!!! But Phoenix is not a lie boy so???? Its very confusing and he's kind of frustrated with that since he's mostly been pretty good at like. Getting people. And this time he is just. ????
Honestly he latched onto the nickname sadist partly because that poking and prodding part of his personality is his most distinctive trait. THATS WEIRD YOURE WEIRD
But he likes to hang out with him and I guess also boy u hot. SIGH.
Phoenix's Ideal Game or your ideal game for Phoenix