He takes Randy's hand, lifts it to his his chest, and places it over his heart.
Randy's probably used to feeling things from Rean, including affection. But now, he feels... As Rean. He can see, just a bit, himself through Rean's eyes.
Tall and strong and handsome, sure. But with such a core of kindness and gentleness that it takes Rean's breath away. A guy who doesn't love himself when he deserves all the love in the world. Someone funny, and smart, and amazing. Someone he trusts. Someone he loves, deeply.
And Rean worries about hurting him, and wishes he could remember him better. But those are minor compared to just enjoying Randy's company right now, in how they know each other now.
He doesn't see Randy as perfect. There's no idealization. But he does see him as wonderful. He wants to protect Randy, and he wants to rely on Randy too. That's just what you do with someone you love, right?
He feels very lucky that Randy loves him, he marvels at it sometimes. He's grateful for Randy. Of course there's also the parts of him that are horny for Randy! There's plenty of physical appreciation and desire but it's just part of it. Part of being incredibly into this guy in front of him.
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Randy's probably used to feeling things from Rean, including affection. But now, he feels... As Rean. He can see, just a bit, himself through Rean's eyes.
Tall and strong and handsome, sure. But with such a core of kindness and gentleness that it takes Rean's breath away. A guy who doesn't love himself when he deserves all the love in the world. Someone funny, and smart, and amazing. Someone he trusts. Someone he loves, deeply.
And Rean worries about hurting him, and wishes he could remember him better. But those are minor compared to just enjoying Randy's company right now, in how they know each other now.
He doesn't see Randy as perfect. There's no idealization. But he does see him as wonderful. He wants to protect Randy, and he wants to rely on Randy too. That's just what you do with someone you love, right?
He feels very lucky that Randy loves him, he marvels at it sometimes. He's grateful for Randy. Of course there's also the parts of him that are horny for Randy! There's plenty of physical appreciation and desire but it's just part of it. Part of being incredibly into this guy in front of him.