[Before she firmly tried to push the thoughts in the garbage, in this situation there's only one person she'd think of first. Rean. And a reality where maybe she was someone he could love.

But she's trying her best to kill the thought after the fact. But it was there for a moment.]

W-why, so you can laugh?

[She doesn't think he really would but. There's a reason she keeps those things firmly to herself. They're fantasy. Ridiculous. Nope. Nope!!!!]