Kissed, asked to have sex, yelled a lot when I said no, so I said she could touch my dumb mammal boobs as a consolation prize and she did and also gave me a hickey, so I whined at her about it and then she was more or less satisfied so.
That might be a little worrying in a different direction. I mean, I'm glad you're not upset and I'm not going to insist you find something upsetting that wasn't but... Definitely from an outside perspective everything you said sounds alarming and I hate it.
I think given the context of your situation it's retroactively kind of scary because I knew she was dangerous but I didn't realize the stakes were that high.
Ah, wait, that's not actually true either, there was a moment where I was a little alarmed, when she put her hands under my shirt and...
[ wait if I say this out loud Phoenix will for sure feel especially personally responsible for it. s-stops?? but i said I would say things??? BUT ALSO??? christ I can't just stop there that's so ominous ]
I mean she did do that, I thought she'd go for over-the-shirt, but all I could think of was that one power SensitIV has every time she touched a scar and I guess she didn't have it or didn't think to use it as leverage but uh.
[ if she had I would have had to do literally whatever she wanted under pain of death because I have so many of them, ]
I'm glad she didn't, I'm glad you're relatively okay, that would have--I don't know if I could have forgiven her for that, if she'd hurt you like that.
Even just thinking how you got out of it does really make me angry.
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What did she do?
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... Um? I mean, all laid out like that it sounds bad, sure... but like, I got out okay, situation successfully managed..?
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[Like with extra scars and bruises but still not raped.]
You have every right to be really alarmed and upset if you... Feel like it was alarming and upsetting. Because it sounds bad because it is bad.
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Ah, wait, that's not actually true either, there was a moment where I was a little alarmed, when she put her hands under my shirt and...
[ wait if I say this out loud Phoenix will for sure feel especially personally responsible for it. s-stops?? but i said I would say things??? BUT ALSO??? christ I can't just stop there that's so ominous ]
I mean she did do that, I thought she'd go for over-the-shirt, but all I could think of was that one power SensitIV has every time she touched a scar and I guess she didn't have it or didn't think to use it as leverage but uh.
[ if she had I would have had to do literally whatever she wanted under pain of death because I have so many of them, ]
That was a tense moment I guess.
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[Hugging E close??? That's so scary to hear.]
I'm glad she didn't, I'm glad you're relatively okay, that would have--I don't know if I could have forgiven her for that, if she'd hurt you like that.
Even just thinking how you got out of it does really make me angry.
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Save some of your anger for yourself, jeez...
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Well, I won't argue your feelings.